Darkness brings misery to the world
only the strongest will prevail.

I’m just any obese, pathetic low self-esteem kid you can find anywhere who is suffering from severe acne problem. Leading an ordinary life with nothing but negative influence and lost his laughter long long ago.

New year resolutions
1.Obviously the first will be scored well in O level and get into a decent JC or Poly course.
2.Have a happier life.
3.Think positively but still think of the worse case scenario.
4.Stop procrasinating.
5.Able to focus on my studies.
6.Not to get bothered unnecessary things.
7.Time to pass faster.
8.Grow taller and lose weight.

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Sunday, December 14, 2008, 6:25 AM

Hello, Shaotao's here to blog again. Shall start from yesterday, basically, yesterday was a celebration organised by my cousin for his colleague, his family and his mother's colleague and there's different sessions for different group. I'm suppose to meet my another cousin at 12am but everybody overslept, hee. Went to my aunt house to deliver the curry chicken to the venue, which is my cousin's house in Serangoon. Went by car. Soon enough, we reached although we are late, sat on the sofa and started watching TV, its airing some weird and fake Huang Fei Hong show, all the martial moves look super fake and slow. Although the food are here, and people had started eating, but since our session starts on 3pm, my and cousin wait till then before we went to get the food. (We reached at 1pm) Took the food and went into my cousin room. Started crapping with my cousins and we talked non-stop for 3-4 hours, wait, it should be listening for 3-4 hours, hehe, I did not really participate in the conversation. But nevermind, I love to a listener than the speaker. Went back on bus with them too. We went to Bukit Panjang Plaza for dinner. Ate a worst Long John Sliver I had ever ate, yucky. Talked and reminisce our past, some were really funny and stupid, although I have totally no memory about them. I was pranked my cousin. T.T Here the story,

Cousin: Wah this chili very hot leh
Me: Hot?
Cousin: Ya Ya... (she put her hand over the chili)

And so, the mind not working mode me went to follow her and she immediately pushed my hand towards the plate of chili and tada, my hand got chili..... The worst was I screamed, though it was typical for me. HEEEEE. After her wonderful prank, she was still rubbing salt onto my wound by saying, " HAHA, I though you knew what I wanted to do! HAHAHAHA." STUPID AHMIONG, I WILL GET MY REVENGE. YOU SHALL WAIT. After being pranked, we took LRT back home and she told me another funny thing. One fine day, her friends decided to be lazy and went to talk the handicap lift ib her school(ngee ann poly), and lucky them, went to take the lift without the knowledge of how to operate the special lift, for people who dont know there's a special lift for handicap, now you know and to operate it, you need to hold on the to button for it to move. So the smart yet stupid people were stuck in the lift and somemore in the lift where everybodu can see them being stuck, they called my cousin to help them. My cousin was just being a typical her by going there for a laugh first before getting help. If I was me, I will definitely do the same as her, hee.

Now, I shall talk about today, slacked in the afternoon and went to ikea afterward, ikea was just being the typical ikea with plenty new designs for us, I saw a room that I always wanted but its impossible for me to get it. Ate dinner at Chanji village and came back home. Received a sms form mstang reminding me about tmr's teachers' training and ask me to go ikea again, LOL but nevermind I will still be going with her.

Having a love-hate feeling for training tomorrow, although he wouldnt be coming but guess my heart for the cca is dying? I still remember I will anticipate cca training even if just a minor exco meeting although I'm in the cca for such a long time but now, I'm not feeling anything. Guess time really change people and with so many ludicrous things happening, sad to say but I'm really jaded. I'm always thinking will things change if I wasnt the president of the cca? If I hadnt do so much and so gullible to be manipulated. It boils down to a fact that maybe I'm too kind-hearted and never want things to be not done properly and allowing the cca to be look down or disapoint the teachers. But I guess mstang was right, altought at the end of the day, people like me will suffer the most but the world still need our existance to do the work. So pathetic yet so true. Saddening, but my heart is numb to all this already, as I was typing, I'm feeling nothing inside, think I will be tearing gloomy if I was the past me. I had changed, a cruel fact. My smiles and laughter were long gone I guess...